Alien Hickey

I was at a friend's house and there were temporary tattoos. I have some real ones, but they are hidden due to my professional goals. I decided that I would put a fake one where everyone could see, but I was wearing long sleeves and pants, so that left few options. I decided to put a flower on my neck. It was fun for a while, but since I got home it has started to peel off, I think it has peeled off a layer of skin too. So, now I have this pink/purple blob surrounded by raw skin on my neck. The rest of the thing won't come off. It looks like I got a hickey from an alien!

It Is Over

Finals are finally over; thereby ending the worst quarter in the history of the world! The whole thing started out bad and got worse. The summer and first week of the quarter was littered with boy drama and friend drama. Followed by my choosing to take 19 units to keep busy and keep my mind off those issues. Maybe taking senior project, a methods course for teaching, computers and society, teaching students with special needs, and taking a class to get my level one technology certification was too much. Who would have ever thought that? I found a group of friends who I like very much and things were going well. Then all hell broke loose; couples were splitting up all over the place and everyone was just trying to survive. School got ridiculously busy after the third week. My birthday celebration was awesome. Unfortunately some more drama arose right after that, feelings were hurt, emotions were high, and the stress of finals was no help. I will be the first to admit, that while well intentioned, some of my third party actions after the events ended up exacerbating the situation. But, things are calming down and I feel that some or most of the drama will be resolved soon and things will be let go. It would be nice for things to go back to normal if that even exists. I think everyone is grateful for the break and some time to breathe.

Take it Away

Growing up I always knew who I was. I was Jessica and if you didn't like it ...that sounded like a personal problem. Somewhere along the way, I lost that. I let people take it away from me. The past few years I have been fighting to get it back. Now that I finally feel like I know who I am and am happy with it, they want to take it away again. "Teaching is a conservative profession." "You have to remove the eyebrow ring and a clear thing won't do it" "Don't let your students see you as anything but professional" "I can see your tattoos under your shirt." Teaching is what I have always wanted to do, but at what cost? Then they have the audacity to tell me "Don't lose who you are because your going to be a good teacher, and if you feel like you have to hide who you are you will be unhappy." Be what we want you to be. Be the robot teacher that has never done anything wrong, is perfect, and has never really lived her life. (Because that is really what connects with students) Be this unrealistic stereotype, but don't lose yourself. It's easy, just have no courage in your convictions. Funny, I thought it was my convictions that led me to be a teacher.

Its that time again

I know that my birthday is coming because I have started to evaluate my life again. Whenever my birthday gets close I start to think about what I have done in the past year. I have accomplished one thing really...getting closer to my occupation. I know a career is important and all, but its only one aspect of life, it just seems to be the only aspect I am really growing in. Don't get me wrong, I have had a good year...I finally found a good group of friends and I have a good time with them, but like I said, its just that time of year again. There are many aspects of my life that I still have yet to live.

I need to Rant

What is up with guy pants? I was walking today and saw a guy wearing obviously new pants that had a strategically place hole in a section of the pant that would be nearly impossible to tear unless it was on purpose. What is that? If I have a hole in my pants its because I earned it!! I know lots of stupid girls buy pre-torn jeans, but I expected boys to be above the retardedness! Earn you holes Men! It is not sexy for a girl to see a guy with torn jeans that are obviously cut. It makes me think you spend too much time shopping. Or you are too prissy to take a fall, but still want to look "cool". Well-YOU DON'T. And anotherthing...What the hell is going on with the men's pants that have paint splattered all over them! UGLY. The only paint splatters I want to see are the ones that come from actually PAINTING SOMETHING Damn it!

Actual Blogg Now

I had to set up this Blogg to prove I could do it for a technology certification...the weird ass things they make teachers do...hence, the name and previous entry. Nicole told me that I should start a Blogg, then I remembered I already had one. I guess I will attempt to stay current with it.
I hate school (not what a future teacher should say). I am just worn out with all the busywork my major entails. I have absolutely no motivation and I do not care at all. I have four papers due in the next three days and what am I doing? I am babbling in a blogg no one I don't already know will ever read! I don't know what my deal is today.
"What's with you today?
"What's with today today?"

Pirates and global warming

Is the decrease in Pirates since 1800 correlated to the increase in world temperature; thus, global warming? (See also badadtronomy and information about the Flying Spaghetti Monster)